May 27, 2010....Thursday

Remember me?? I am the person that is suppose to be writing this blog. Well, the past few days/weeks just have not been the best, so I shall give you my tale of woe.

I have had some problems, mainly pain ever since my last hip replacement back in Feb. but its not been in the hip I had replaced, its been in my right knee area and I had that knee replaced two years ago this September, and pain in my left hip which was replaced two years ago this past April. So this week alone I have had a bone scan which showed no bone problems, and that is good, but I have also been having my feet hurting like mad, and the scanned my feet as well to find I have Arthritis in my feet, and really nothing can be done about that. Yesterday I had an MRI done on my lower back to see if maybe I have a pinched nerve. So with all this going on I have to confess my eating has not been the best in the world, in other words, I have been having my own little pity party, and no I have not invited anyone else to join in with me.

I am very tired, I am a full time caregiver for my husband, who even though I do love him very much, there are times I would really just love to walk away. No one steps up to say, ''hey, would you like a day off?" OH sure there are people here that could do that, in fact dear husband should himself be stepping up to the plate telling sons, ''the woman needs a break, and badly." However, the man does not want to deprive himself of the excellent care I give him for the hit and miss care he gets when I am not around.

I know I am not the only person that is a caregiver and I also know I am not the only person that feels this way, but good Lord, are highly educated people really so stupid that they cannot see when someone needs a break. I find it very odd that they can see the need somewhere else, but they sure as hell cannot see it right here under their noses. Makes me wonder when it is done for others if its just for show, and to make themselves feel good that they are doing something even if its not helping me out.

I have to admit, I have wondered how much longer I am going to be able to do this.

I know not a very uplifting blog today, but hell, this is just how I am feeling this morning, tired, trapped and seeing now way out.

May 17, 2010...Monday

"Have a talk with yourself. Then have a lot more talks with yourself. Convince number one that you can succeed, and you will succeed. If you don't believe in yourself , why should anyone else?

Sometimes we just have to sit ourselves down and give ourselves a good talking too. I have been needing that lately due to I seem to have lost my MOJO for staying on program. I begin my day in good standing, but something happens between mid afternoon and time to go to bed, I just seem to lose it all, all the work I have put into staying on plan.

I let this be known in an email I sent out to my group yesterday, and one of the gals wrote back telling me, ''maybe you are exactly where your suppose to be, maybe, you have settled into being at maintenance and you really don't have to think so much about every single thing you do."'
Could that be possible, and if it is, when did it happen?

May 13, 2010....Thursday

Every notice how people will flip and fludder from one idea on how to lose weight to another one. Am I crazy or what, but I would think to pick a plan and stick with that, do what you are suppose to do, then you will see the results. But running from one idea that worked for someone else, no matter how crazy it may sound, to the next fly by night thing, just does not make sense to me.

Pick a plan, make a plan and stick with it. Seems pretty easy to me.

May 11, 2010....Tuesday

Shut out your past except that which will help you weather your tomorrow."

William Osler

Memory can be used for good or for evil. If we use our past as a source of learning, it’s worth remembering. If, however, all we do is mull over our mistakes and punish ourselves for our failures, it’s a waste of time. Rehashing or revisiting is such a waste of both time and energy. and can paralyze us into the fear of making another mistake. Which, of course, just makes this worse and practically guarantees future letdowns. The key to goal achievement is to pay more attention to the future than to the past. Have you ever noticed that the best athletes also have the shortest and most selective memories? Well at least before television and instant replay. Instead of dwelling on a missed shot or a flawed dive, they concentrate on making corrections and getting the next one right. It’s as if the failed attempt never happened. It’s forgotten and they don’t fear trying again. If we mess up, and who of us has not, work hard to leave it behind and concentrate on the possibilities yet to come. Tomorrow is much brighter when it’s not smeared with trying to remember all the mess ups we had yesterday.

We will all makes mistakes or misjudge something, but when that does happen we just need to try and learn something from it and move right on, ad always remembering, tomorrow we get a clean slate.

May 10, 2010...Monday

" It is good to have an end to journey toward;but it is the journey that matter, in the end."

Make lifestyle and lifetime changes, that is the real goal to look toward.

May 09, 2010..Sunday...Happy Mothers Day

If you think your beaten-you are. If you think you care not-you don't. If you'd like to win, but you think you can't-you won't.

Life battles don't always go to the one with the better plan. For more often than not, you will win. If only you think you can.

May 07, 2010...Friday

Do you ever get frustrated? Because you think things are going too slowly on your weight loss journey? Many of us do and we don’t realize that we should be building a Foundation that will lead to success, and that does not happen overnight. We join or begin any weight loss journey with first and foremost in our minds, ''losing weight." But we need to look at other things as well, we need to work at building a strong Foundation, and that is a slow process in which we are constantly building and learning. It is extremely important to create a Foundation that will remain strong even in times of failure or crisis, and from time to time we all have felt like a failure and we all have had our own crisis to deal with. It is when we have used the tools we have been given that we get our Foundation ready, to withstand the setbacks that can be thrown at us.This takes time, its not going to happen overnight, just ask anyone who has been at goal for a month. You may have to remind yourself that failing is only failure if you quit…otherwise it is a learning opportunity. So, don’t worry if your journey seems to be in slow motion. Concentrate on building a solid foundation so when the time comes you will be able to withstand the storms of life.

May 6, 2010.....Thursday

When you fail, or fall short, do you find it hard to get back up? If you do, you are completely normal. Many people use failure as an excuse to give up. It is important to understand that failure is a part of the growth process. Think about this example. How many times when the question has been asked, ''have you done Weight Watchers before" do we see dozens of hands go up. Too many times to count, but the good news is they were willing to give it another try. Everything around us has taken trail and error before it was gotten right. Look how far the computer has come.

Remember, there is no expiration date on our weight loss journey, and we will see people come and go, and more times than not the reason for that is, they thought they were cured. I think we all have days were we honestly don't think, we can eat one more salad, we can write down one more thing, we can go to the gym one more day, but you know what, we can and we will, and why? Because we may take a detour once in awhile, but we never ever lose our way.

May 2, 2010...Sunday

Memory can be used for good or for evil. If you use your past as a source of learning, it’s worth remembering. If, however, all you do is mull over your mistakes and punish yourself for your failures, it’s a waste of time. Rehashing failure can paralyze you in mortal fear of making another mistake. Which, of course, just makes this worse and practically guarantees future letdowns. The key to goal achievement is to pay more attention to the future than to the past.

Have you ever noticed that the best athletes also have the shortest and most selective memories? Instead of dwelling on a missed shot or a flawed dive, they concentrate on making corrections and getting the next one right. It’s as if the failed attempt never happened. It’s forgotten and they don’t fear trying again. If you mess up, even in an epic, life-altering way, work hard to leave it behind and concentrate on the possibilities yet to come. Tomorrow is much brighter when it’s not smeared with a fixation on yesterday.