02-18-2010....Friday

I have no doubt at all, that I am the world's worst blogger. This is why I have fallen so behind in updating and such. So this morning I thought I'd come by and try my best to remedy this. So here goes.

Several months ago I seemed to have gotten on the Struggle Bus and taken it over where my weight loss journey is concerned. Last year at this time I was recovering from a hip replacement, my second one in two years. Things were moving alone, then in May I began to have pain in my left hip, the one I had done in 2008. So went back to the doctor, had a bone scan done, an MRI, nothing showed up. So I began to think, ''this is just all in my head." So I continued to go to the gym five days a week, but still I was not able to hold out on the elliptical as I have been able to do before. So I ended up slacking off on my exercise. Even just walking was not an option due to I have this place on the top of my foot that burns and stings, and other than Arthritis I have no idea what that problem is from. So long story short, I have been struggling, but who doesn't struggle at some point and time. For me, this had helped to replace 16 pounds back on me that I so don't need. Pushing me over my goal weight by six pounds. So fast forward to right now. I have found out the hip does have a problem, its coming lose from the socket. Have no idea why this is, but it has also formed cyst there as well. So surgery is in my future yet again. Now I need, and want the problem fixed, I just did not know it was going to be such a drastic thing....surgery...again. So many questions I have for my Orthopedic doctor, one of the main ones is....I have two other replaced joints, is this going to happen to those as well???

But even with the weight gain, and frustration of all of this, I have not given up. I am back on track and in the past two weeks have lost 11 pounds, all without stepping foot in the gym, I do my daily stuff, which at times can be overwhelming, but being a full time caregiver, you do not get time off just because your in pain. Which at times is good that way I am not thinking of the pain, I'm just doing what has to be done.

So all in all, life is a challenge, but come on, whose life is not a challenge? We all have something or many somethings in our lives that cause us challenges, the main thing is to never give up. We have to just forge forward.

02-01-2011...Tuesday

Over the years I have found trying to be perfect at just about anything is a waste of time. However doing something well 80% of the time and leaving 20% for screw ups, may work better.

No matter how old we get, we still need to be open for new ways on doing things. Whether it is on our weight loss journey, our relationships or life just in general.

01-31-2011.....Monday

Insanity is doing the same thing the same way, but expecting a different result.

Recently I read that quote, and realized how true it really is. A friend of mine that I go to Weight Watchers with, helped me to see, that with this new WW program it is like the old one. Does not matter if I do stay within my points plus plan if I am still eating the franken foods I am still going to be struggling with the Yo Yo way of life.

Its not rocket Science as we say so often, it is all about making better choices. Do our bodies really need that entire box of Russell Stovers? I really don't think so, but a piece or two now and then won't hurt, but the secret to this is ''now and then" not every single day and maybe half a box instead of two pieces.

Yes, this is not hard, but we try to make it difficult.

1=30-2011......Sunday

We are just about done with the month of January. January always seems like such a long month to me and I think it has to do with we are done with the festivities, the Christmas decorations are put away and life begins to get back to what it was. A bit boring. Good news is this will just put us closer to Spring time arriving.

I did much better last week with my food choices. Exercise is still not there, and I go in this Tuesday for my CAT Scan and Ultrasound on my hip. I am glad that no problems have been found, but I am not happy that I still have no clue why I am having all this pain. Just does not make sense.

Of course this is a small problem compared to the things other people have to deal with. My goal for this week is to stay focused and stay on track and not to dip into the 49 bonus points anymore. I made quite the dent in them yesterday.

If anyone comes by welcome, and hope your day will be a good one.

01-23-2011....Monday

Every time I tell myself I am going to be better at my blogging, I seem to fall even further behind. This has been a very busy few weeks, and I have been dealing with hip pain, so that has kept me from the gym, as well as the cold and snow. But, after our Weight Watchers meeting on Saturday, I knew that everything I was saying was nothing but an excuse. Sure I can't make it to the gym, but I really think the thing that has made me gain the weight is the boxes of candy I have consumed. This is what a compulsive person does when they have no clue what to do...they eat themselves into a stupor.

Good news is, my eating is now on track. I'm tracking every morsel that enters my mouth. I've had to pay at our meeting for the past 3 weeks, and since we only have one more weigh in for this month, and that is this Saturday, I really want to be back at goal. If I work hard and watch every thing, get my water drinking in, I should do alright.

Its not the end of the world, but a new beginning.

01-12-2011....Wednesday

I was reading an article the other day about how sometimes we get more support from total strangers than we do from those that are actually closer to us. We all have people that are not blood relatives that are as close or at times even closer than some of our family members.

There are times in our lives that when we make changes, we will share it with a friend way before we mention it to a family member, this happens especially when it comes to losing weight. So many times we have tried and failed at any number of weight loss plans and our family can have the look of, ''here she/he goes again," on their faces. But, if we share our hopes and dreams with our friends, they at times can be much supportive.

I have to admit Bob is very supportive of my goals, and he is the first one to tell me when I am driving the Struggle Bus, ''you will get past this." Then I have my Weight Watcher family, when I am struggling you all have always been there to help push me in the right direction. This I call a blessing.

So if your family is full of encouragement, and are not telling you, ''you just need a cheeseburger," then thank them, just as I am thanking all of you today. If your family Is not, then take some time today and let them know how much you need them to be there for you through this journey. Sometimes just by sharing what we need, we may well find the support will soon follow.

The thing we do have to remember is our friends and family are not mind readers, so we have a part to play in making our wishes known.

01-10-2011....Monday

Have you looked in the mirror lately? Are you noticing any changes. Have you changed physically? Are you standing a little taller or maybe carry yourself a bit differently?

Maybe you have gotten used to wearing lose, baggy clothes or standing behind others in photographs, or even avoiding the camera at all cost. Is this you? Or was this you?

I have to admit, even at my heaviest I never was camera shy. I know, no one is surprised there. But too look back at those earlier pictures and now to look at the present day pictures, for me it is a real transformation. So I say NO MORE HIDING!!! No more being a wallflower, its time to come out of hibernation and show off all your hard work. What better time to shine than during the cold, gray Winter months.

Shine as if it were the first day of Spring.