Monday, June 28, 2010


You can't be stuck if your not trying to get anywhere.

Not a week goes by that I do not hear someone telling me, ''this WW thing just does not work." "Why should I even bother, everyone tells me I will just put the weight back on."

The way I see it is, sure there is a chance I will put the weight back on, but it won't be due to the WW plan was not working, it will be due to ''Joan stopped working." Like the rest of the world, I can find 110 thousand or more people, places or things to blame my short coming on, but why bother doing that when in reality we all know there are times, ''we are our own worst enemies."

Are you really stuck, or are you pretending to do what really needs to be done? Each of us have the answer to that question.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Sunday, June 27, 2010

You are the one in control. You own the instrument that controls your weight. It is not the food, and it is not the fork you eat with. It is the hand that picks up the fork.
Jean Nidetch, Weight Watcher Founder

Ever notice how some things you read just scream at you? This quote did just that for me.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


Okay I have used up all my excuses. I have blamed my poor proformance with diet and exercise on everything under the sun. So what has happen?? The scale is creeping up into the territory that I never, ever wanted to see again. So what do I do?? Do I continue to allow that to happen?? HELL NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What I do, do is get off my lazy butt and get in some exercise. So yesterday afternoon, I did a 15 minute walking video, this morning I did a 15 minute walking video, these 15 minutes are 1 mile each, but this morning I did the video with resistance bands.

Sure my back, hurts, but it still bends, sure my legs hurt, but at least I have legs, sure my feet hurt, but by damn I still have feet. So that is it for me, I'm getting back to the number on the scale that I like better than the one I have been seeing lately.

Its Kick Some Butt time, and MY Butt gets kicked first.

Sunday, June 20, 2010


If you've started out in pursuit of your goal, and you've really tried with your heart and your soul, but somehow things got out of control...
When you've tried your best to do what you should, and you thought this time that you surely would, but once again you didn't do so good...
When you've worked to follow the healthy way and fought to win a victory each day, but one more time you went astray...
When you've tried so hard to yourself to be true and do the things that you know you should do, but once again you failed to come through...
When the road to success seems much too long, and each temptation was oh so strong, and once again you gave in to wrong...
When you've told your friends what you planned to do and trusted them to help you through, but soon discovered it's up to YOU...
When you know you must be physically fit, but your hope seems gone and you're stuck in a pit, that's not the time for you to QUIT...
When the week seems long and successes few, and at weigh in time you're feeling blue, remember tomorrow is just for you...
To keep going means a victory's been won, to keep going means a race well run, to keep going proves it can be done, so don't just sit there...


(written by Dale Dauten as “START OVER”

Thursday, June 17, 2010


I was with some of my WW girlfriends yesterday afternoon, and two things always come up when we are, and what finally got our minds set to get us to our goal weight.

Everyone had a different answer to the question ''what got you motivated." But it really all boils down to pure DETERMINATION. Yes, it is that simple, we each wanted to get to our goal, more than we wanted that extra serving of whatever.

I have gotten to my goal I set for WW, but I still have a personal goal I want to get to, I tell myself I want to get to that personal goal, but I have not found the DETERMINATION just yet. It will come, and while I wait, I will continue to stay within my goal weight....actually a few pounds below my goal weight.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010


Last time I was by here, I was very frustrated with life in general. Being a full time caregiver, and trust me I know I am not the only one that does this, but there are times I just get so overwhelmed, and felt as if that is all anyone in the McAdams family cares about is my taking care of Bob. No one ever offers me time away, and I have to wonder, if these people need a break from their jobs that actually pay money, then why on earth would they not realize I need a break as well due to being stuck in the same place with the same person day in and day out. I find all this very interesting, and I'm sorry because they are ''men'' that excuse is just so worn out, its not even funny.

I had a hip replaced back in February, as soon as I came home, the one and only son that was here in town at that time scattered like a roach when the lights are turned on. No phone call at anytime asking if things were going okay, no offer of coming out to help a bit. I just still find all of this hard to understand.

However, Bob does not ask them to give me a break either, but I do understand his reason better then I understand theirs. Bob knows the care I give him, but he's never sure about what kind of care he will get from his sons. I never leave and am gone more than 1 hour at a time, does not matter if my errands will take longer, I call, check in, or even come back by the house to make sure alls well.

I don't need a pat on the back, but I do need some consideration, and I really don't think that is asking all that much.

Venting taking a pause for now.

The Grad.

Not sure how great this picture will show up, but this was taken the afternoon of Coty's graduation. Ahhh, turning 18.

The outfit I have on, belonged to my Mother when she was still alive. Another goal I met was wearing that outfit to the graduation.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

New improved Joan

The day, June 6th,2009, I made it below goal.

Old Joan

The day I joined Weight Watchers, weighing in at 272.2 pounds.

June 2, 2010....Wednesday

"If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again." Flavia Weedn

We have all had dreams from time to time and those dreams do change as we get older. Being overweight from the time I was in second grade, it seemed the only dream I seem to ever have was ''wanting to be thin enough to wear the cute things my best friend Anna was wearing." Of course that never happened, did not matter how much I wished for that, or my Mother tried to make me want it bad enough to push myself away from the table. All through grade school, back then we had no such thing a middle school, and all through high school, I felt and wished ''I was one of the small girls." Well it didn't happen until 40 years later, but hey better late than never, and even though my dream had been broken many times into a zillion pieces, I did pick one of those pieces up, and very soon, as a matter of fact June 6th, I will be able to celebrate one full year being at or below my goal weight!!!!!
Our dreams are our wanting more for ourselves, and it took a long time, but I finally got what I wanted for myself. I should go look up my childhood friend Anna, and see how she is doing, wonder if she can still wear those ''cute'' dresses.
Back then I wanted to be able to wear the cute things, and it never happened, today I do this for my health, the smaller sized clothes are just....dare I say it....the cherry on top.
You have your dreams, and whatever they maybe, never, ever let anyone try to take those dreams from you.